Your Love is My Drug - Ke$ha
Im blogging at 5am with Higher Chinese the next day. Nice.
English mid yr was tough. I dun seem to care as much alr.
I dun even noe whether JC or poly.
Sucks la.
I just dun seem to bother to study for every single thing.
Its pointless.
Im not putting any hope in getting good results anymore.
Things are just not getting our way all around the world.
For the 1st time, i think Judgement Day should just come as soon as possible.
Show Your presence.
to THOSE who criticise and ignore You.
Liverpool won Burnley 4-0, without Torres.
Gerrard is the hero.
But against Athletico it will be tough. Got Aguero on their side. No Torres on our side.
Inter won mighty Barcelona on aggregate
Sometimes you just have to close one eye and take any setbacks as nothing, then you will be successful. Thats reality.
Nothing is fair in this world. No one is fair to Him at all.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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Monday, April 26, 2010
Fight For This Love - Cheryl Cole
Ashley Cole's wife... Or is it ex-wife?
Respect, one of the core values of the school, and ironically, theres this teacher who didnt respect me.
If im the offered the role, and im not the one doing it, im fine with it.
But if i got the role that YOU gave me, and u chose to let other ppl do it, then thats really not fair.
I already knew long ago didnt want me to have this role. And when theres any role regarding me, you will send ANOTHER PERSON FIRST then me to do it.
Have you give any respect for me? Then wy did u give me that role? Or is it you give me because of my family? To put it crudely, to save face?
I dun wan to be called someone's brother, someone's friend, bla bla.
I want to be myself. I've got sick and tired of it since primary school.
Can somebody do that? So far, no. Im always a shadow of someone else.
And now, i have to face her every week for lessons.
And im not gonna do any single thing for her anymore. Luckily im not helping her set up the computer anymore.
She just doesn't see all the hard work i've done for her.
Rashid doesn't want to let ego know what he wrote.
Contradictory, i actually wanted to let her see this.
I guess she doesn't know how im feeling.
Honestly, she 看小我.
I dunno if its because of my small-build size.
...
Ok anger's over, what's anger me has been forgiven, i hope.
Today school was ok. Chem was boring, Eng was boring. But i actually got 20/30 from... nothing. I only had good sentence constructions from my simple english and nothing else.
Honestly ppl, im not trying to brag, but its not even considered a 19 or 18.
SO, dun be pissed with me or sth. Cuz i know thats very common.
Physics. Got this new programme which can enable ppl to use multiple mouses at one time. So the computer can have 10 mouses like that. But the lesson goes haywire. Some mouse cannot detect. Then after can detect, other mouse cannot detect.
So we only had about 20minutes of lesson. Do in class better. Like nearer to the computer.
And ppl keep throwing cloths which make me very irritated.
Bio. Happy with my result. Yes, im finally happy with something i've achieved despite all the hesitating.
I really have to change my disliking studying mindset.
Before assembly, someone said something which made me wanting to shout at the person. But i didnt knew if thats the intention that person is trying to mean, so i rather not say anything.
Assembly got drums stuff. Quite nice.
Was desperate for someone to draw on my back, cuz i like that feeling strangely. Dunno why.
Last time in primary 2-4 i have this friend who always help me draw on the back during assembly. Then we decided to sit next to each other and draw on each other's backs -.-
We didnt care what other ppl think of us. .gays LOL.
Went to eat with Junjie, Rashid, Genghao. Nothing much to talk about cuz i can barely hear what they are saying -.-
Why cant i on the com everyday like everyone else? grr...
My 1st time in dunno how many months i've on my com for 3 days in a row. Yay.
Mid-year's coming... Who cares.
Is there a poly course thats related to sports? I only know sports science or sth. Thats what natalia took.
I want know more. Like something to do with maths and sports bla bla. but NOT kinematics that kind.
Cuz that sucks.
Bye.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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Sunday, April 25, 2010
SHERO - S.H.E
The chorus nice!
Went night studying for 4 days last week. But only can do homework. Cant study.
Sorry Rashid, but Friday was one of my best days. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. And keeps urging you to play. But my stamina dropped... but so fun!
Almost late for guitar -.-
I scored the winner for my team in my last game! So happy.
AA i want to play more.
Dun care mid-year.
Im now having a 6-day school week -.- Malay lesson early in the morning on saturday, followed by tuition. End 1.30pm.
Tottenham and Man City drop points! Liverpool must win...
People who knew: What should i do? Help...
AA i want to control my life, do what i want to do.
But it looks impossible.
Bye.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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Saturday, April 24, 2010
需要你的爱
Emo song...
I think u hear the song without seeing the MV got much more emo impact.
School was more horrible than usual. Especially tests which i screw up.
Im starting to get borderline pases for subjects, even the easiest subject called Chemistry. Maybe all sciences are hard. Ok its not maybe. Its true.
I actually tot that i studied very hard for it, and in the end, i only knew half of what jasper knew -.-
Got some consolation for A Maths test. Thanks Edenuis and Yiren for... something.
And this shows im lousy.
E Maths test. Lost 3 marks on the 1st page, thats all.
E Geog. The qn is A, but i answered A, B, C and any other stuff that seem related from the textbook.
Thats so much tings to blog about, but time is running out.
I am multi-tasking by using 5 tabs at the same time. Facebook, hotmail, soccernet, blogger, youtube, footytube. Is that 6?
Nafa test. Im scared to try the pull-ups. Will wait till next week.
So in a rush that i even let her see what im writing.
Liverpool won and lost. Bye.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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Saturday, April 17, 2010
God Of Ages
Im such a crybaby.
Guess what. I lost a $388 phone.
Heart break....... Cried like crazy in the toilet :'(Ytd emo until i slept at 9.30. Didnt even brush my teeth.
And i kept dreaming about my phone -.-
'Don't give up hope,for before any miracles or breakthrough is usually seems like a dead end,but it's at the dead end that u find intersections of breakthrough and miracles! Gather up strength!'
Thanks Ailin :)
I really need miracles. I really have a lot of dead ends.
I hope this incident gives me some revelation.
What a great farewell to wushu.
Monday-Thursday: What happen ar?
Friday: Didnt bring any books. Just had P.E. Did Sit and Reach. Not bad. Pull up die alr.
Geog is free period. Listened to songs on my... uh hum.
Go for competition. Ate biscuits on the bus until sore throat.
Listened to songs on my...
At chung cheng high. Carried my wallet and ... to the canteen to eat.
After lunch. I put my wallet AND ... in my bag.
I dun have the slightest memory of myself taking it out.
Competition. Did my best alr.
Very few medals by NAS this year.
After the competition, went to my bag, its gone.
Stolen? Why i so suay.
Dropped? (quite unlikely since its in my bag) Then why the person who found the ... didnt pass it to the general office.
NO!
And thanks alot Derrick for caring.
What a waste of money. Havent even reach 2 months.
Student Plan gone.
Using my 97304320 number again.
I cant keep track of time when i was going for guitar lesson cuz i no watch and no ...
Like i felt i was handicapped.
My face was :( throughout the whole guitar lesson. Felt sick. Sore throat. Continued with the Jay Chou song. Freaking hard.
Went home. The atmosphere was dead.
Got soccer match on channel 5 which i did not bother to watch. for the 1st time.
Sleep. Throat pain. Didnt brush teeth (additional info?) Kept waking up halfway cuz of 'phone nightmare'.
I didnt noe why, but i felt that my life was totally screwed ytd. Like that kind of you-dun-even-noe-who-you-are type. When i was waking up in the middle of the night. Anyone got this experience before? It sucks.
But with God, i felt better.
Must be thinking that God let me lose a phone for a reason.
But why? Dam sad.
Today: Woke up at 8. Cuz i didnt do my tuition homework. And i remembered got tuition test today.
Did my homework. Didnt study for test.
Test almost all wrong.
Like, i dun care? Tuition so stressful for wad. I must lead a happy life. Just cope with what you can cope. Dun care others.
I like old phones.
What on earth is Nokia X6? Torchlight phone? Oh i donated it to a person who needs that lousy phone more than me unintentionally.
388 dollars? Oh i go in casino then lost 288 dollars.
I love my new phone now. Its third handed and antique. Its so rare that you cant even buy in any phone shop now, i think.
Its PRICELESS.
But im missing my songs in that torchlight phone.
God rocks. Bye.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
Goodbye, X6...
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Saturday, April 10, 2010
Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson
Got Kelly Clarkson, Show Luo, Jay Chou concert in Singapore this year! But all so ex, cant go. Saving money...
A tiring week.
Individual events finally over.
The judges are really biased. Controversy.
Nvm.
I still not 'offically' stepped down yet, frustratingly.
Still got group event next Friday.
So means still got training.
But its my last few times training wushu alr, so i think i would give my best.
What a great farewell to wushu. After about 9 years?
Tests.
E maths. Was really happy that i can do. Though got stuck at one qn for 5 mins. But still managed to solve it. Got chance of getting high marks. The teacher maths failed, 45 mins become 42 mins. Wow.
Physics only 30 marks.2 pages missing. And i tot i was the only one with 5 pages, almost freaked out.
Didnt learn about spray painting. Marks flew away...
But i think my common sense can pull me some marks... -.-
Investiture. Quite boring. And the hall dun have the atmosphere. So little parents too.
Fear no challenge, fear no pain...
Everything in life is every well-planned by Him. He knows when is the appropriate time to give you miracles when in times of need. Or maybe miracles are already predicted beforehand by Him.
Im not Him, so i wont know.
But just know that ur life is in control.
So to people who need miracles, those miracles hve already been long given to you.
So just believe in miracles...
Liverpool through to the semis of Europa League. But i wonder if they can qualify for the Champions League if they win the Europa League. Hmm.
I need to play the whole day so i can feel guilty so i can study.
Weird motivation... But i need it.
I love studying, i love studying, I LOVE STUDYING!
Doesnt work -.-
Bye.
I LOVE STUDYING! still not working... -.-
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Learn My Lesson - Daughtry
So boring.
Night-studying for the 1st two days. Very productive and effective as compared to home. But the bad thing is it ends at 9. Wth. Should make it earlier.
Wushu competition came at a very bad time. Seeing those enthu wushu people makes me freak out. Got 46 people in my 1st event, which is 0% chance for me to win anything. Sit down there for almost 2 hours!!! Waste time. When it was finally my turn, i was like oh yay. When finish, oh yay go home. Got 20 something position. Not bad alr. People still ask me if i got win -.- Dan gu gu
Doubt i will study much at home today.
Got Physics and E Maths test. Dun understand physics.
Tml got competition. Boo. 3rd last person in the event to go up. Always the last few :@ Waste time.
But then by tml my individual events are finally over!
CAN STEP DOWN!
FINALLY!
Bye.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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Sunday, April 4, 2010
What About Now - Daughtry
My mood seemed to change for the better.
Have the mood to blog about the happenings in my life, i think.
Good Friday, and i actually blogged about unhappy stuff -.-
Didn't study on Good Friday, but i ran at an unusual time at 3pm. According to people, its supposed to rain at 3pm. Turned out the weather is perfect for me. Not too sunny and windy. Ran at good time. Good, not great -.-
Saturday. Didn't go CCA cuz got tuition. But its my last training be4 my individual competitions, and i didnt go -.-
Speaking of my competition...:@
I have 46 people in one of my events. And thats ALOT. Normally is 20+ for guys, 10+ for girls. For me, 46. OMG. And im the 37th person to go on the arena. Or wadeva you call it. That means i have to wait over an hour for my turn. Amazing,
2nd event, 27 people. Its better than the 1st one, but it still suck. im the 25th of the 27th to go. SUCK.
And its 1% chance of me getting any medal for both events. Remember, nothing is possible if you dun have the desire to achieve it. That's right, i dun have the desire. I just want to get it over and done with. So i can step down.
Ok, so after that, tuition. I think the tuition teacher gives me more motivation than the principal. Cuz the teacher like grading the students one on one. Then when say me that time, i just feel like doing well for english.
You don't do homework for a week, your English marks will be down by 2-3 marks.
Cuz English is not about knowledge gained, but knowledge applied.
Application comes with practice.
WOAH.
Hi.
Hmm, but i wonder if this can motivate me for my other subjects...
Moving on.
Easter service. The stuff that i wrote on some people's cards are like, crap.
The starting of the service was very solemn, after the P&W.
Cuz Pastor Kong was saying like we can't have the Suntec anymore. So is like, dead quiet. But i dun think its a suitable time to say all the law stuff cuz people brought friends for the service. So its kinda weird.
But the drama is cool. Got Bad Romance song -.- They changed the lyrics to Christian song -.- LOL.
ya, great service.
Watched Down With Love. Like, ok? Im not very interested in it liao leh. But still nice to watch.
Watched abit about Incredible Tales. About black magic. Dun quite get the story, but Rashid explained to me.
I'm gonna have my own room soon :)
My parents took a long time to decide when to tell my japanese tenant to move out. So they finally did.
But she is allowed to move out only after she found another place to stay.
Like very bad right? But have own room... Me and my bro grow up liao ma... Thats the excuse my parents use... hehe
eeww, im not so used to saying hehe or keke. or wadever.
I think im sort of forced to be the guitarist on monday. Not really forced, cuz i am unwillingly-willing to serve God in a higher level. So, im trying, although i have 90% of screwing up. its really hard.
But, the Impossible is Possible.
A was in this group. But because of some situations, or some people, A quit the group. Some time passed, and A felt like joining the group again. But from what i know, A feels awkward going back to the group A left. And i think, she's joining another group now.
i feel kinda sad. i want A to go back to the same group.
Bye.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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Friday, April 2, 2010
Every Time You Turn Around - Daughtry
I dun give a damn whether u hate Daughtry onot.
Dashing Dreams
I guess im the only person who thinks that its impossible to cope with studies. When i mean cope, i just mean persevere till the end of the O'lvls. You may think its easy, but, no. Not for me.
It's not like im caught with stress about needing to study hard to get single-digit points. I really really DUN GIVE A DAMN whether i get 20 points onot. And Mrs Wee asking me to get 10 distinctions? FAT HOPE.
The impossible can be possible, only if i have the desire to achieve it.
Sometimes gets so pissed that i want to get 90 points for everyone to see.
So whats wrong with me? I dunno. Im crazy.
Studying is just not my type. But it's not like i can give up. I dun hav a choice.
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